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Still alive. Guh.
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| This means... what you will of it. |
[08 Jul 2008|09:06pm] |
Every rose has its barbs, every beauty has its ugly innards. There is more to be experienced than just the good and the pleasant.
So it's my nature to stop and throw my finger upon every blood thirsty thorn... At least I dare to dream. To appreciate something, you have to take the good with the bad.
We could say a fool learns not from his mistakes, but I prefer to see it as a wise man knows the value of persistence.
Let's just hope he knows enough to walk away when all options are exhausted. Some things are best observed at a comfortable distance, beyond reach of pricking briars.
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[08 Jul 2008|11:56am] |
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So I googled Crochet Online Community before I wrote my last post and clicked on a link.. Well I checked it out and there is no way if I made anything it could compete with ravelry.com. Period. Online communities sure aren't what they used to be. :(
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[08 Jul 2008|03:40pm] |
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What else should I be?
All apologies
What else could I say?
Everyone is gay
What else could I write?
I don't have the right
What else should I be?
All apologies
In the sun
In the sun I feel as one
In the sun
In the sun
I'm married
Buried
I wish I was like you--
Easily amused
Find my nest of salt
Everything is my fault
I'll take all the blame
Aqua seafoam shame
Sunburn with freezerburn
Choking on the ashes of her enemy
In the sun
In the sun I feel as one
In the sun
In the sun
Married
Married
Married
Buried
Yeah
Yeah
Yeah
Yeah
All in all is
All we are
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| Oooooh on the TLC tip! |
[08 Jul 2008|11:39pm] |
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My internet has been so slow for ages now. I'd ring Bigpond up to abuse them but it's possible that it's because we've gone over our download limit (which is abysmal anyway) or because we're about to be disconnected for non-payment. I AM GETTING ANGRIER BY THE MINUTE AS EVERYTHING TAKES 1500X LONGER THAN IT SHOULD TO LOAD!
So I'm not going to even attempt to post a weekend roundup as I have bunch of photos to upload which would surely take hours. So for now, have a photo from my "used to be cool" day at work yesterday where the girls in my pod dressed as early-90s TLC:
Please note: The captions were actually added by my manager (who was dressed as Nick Carter from the Backstreet Boys, may I add).
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[08 Jul 2008|12:09am] |
My brain hurts, I feel dumb, conflicted and guilty.
But regardless of that I can't turn off my stupid stupid stupid mind.
Camping was amazing, fuck the rain it was just lovely. Will post a propper update... soonish
need a smile?
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[07 Jul 2008|02:18pm] |
O.k., so I sucked it up and tried to get in to see a doctor about my bruising. I called the clinics that are affiliated with my 'insurance' and none of them would take me on as a patient, so I had to call the main clinic, which is at the hospital and notorious for losing my paperwork/screwing up appointments, or just plain forgetting why I am there (They once called me months after the fact to alert me to an abnormality in my blood tests, and subsequent appointments for lab work were nothing short of disastrous- I never even got that problem resolved)
Well, they made an appointment last Monday for today. One week isn't too terribly bad, I've had to wait a couple months for an appointment before. I got someone at work to cover the morning shift for me and I went in. The only way to get an earlier appointment is to go to the ER and then they still refer you if it's really not an emergency.
My appointment was at 10:40 and I got there at 10:20. The adult clinic has two wings, and the side my doctor is on was shut off for some sort of 'Emergency' and when they finally let us in there, it was 10:50. I checked in, left the 'appointment time' and all that and then paid my co-pay and sat down, waiting to be called.
About an hour passed, and I thought, oh well, I'm really pretty used to waiting. Then (after returning from lunch) the girl who checked me in said 'You still sittin' here? They ain't called you yet?" Then proceeded to wave me back to the check-in counter, and called back to the back.
Apparently, my doctor had left at 11, since no one told her I was there for my appointment. It's not like I could have checked in any earlier or anything. They said they'd refund my co-pay and that she'd see me next week. I asked if I could see another doctor, not necessarily today, but that it was hard for me to get Mondays off and I really needed to see someone. She said if I really needed to see someone to go to the ER that they can only make appointments for me with that doctor, of course on the day that I can't get covered at work..
Anyway, I guess I'm going back next week for round two of what I'm sure is going to be a hellish couple of months.
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That being said..the bruising itself is healing up, and I think the culprit was that I was taking between 900-1800 mg of ibuprofen a day because I'm always sore/in pain. I stopped, and am now in pain all the time again, but the bruising is going.
I'm still really dizzy, lethargic and just tired all the time, with large bouts of depression and anxiety, which may be separate, or not.
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| Week Nine Weigh-In |
[05 Jul 2008|11:13am] |
The first part of this past week was a disaster... the trip to the lake made for very poor eating, and I didn't have the energy to try to eat healthy or keep track. I managed to pull myself together by Wednesday and still managed a respectable loss for the week. Next week's goal is to keep track all week!
This week's loss: 0.8 lbs
Total loss: 14.4 lbs
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| She's crazy like a fool... |
[07 Jul 2008|04:53am] |
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I can't sleep. When I lay down I'm having "racing thoughts", as my shrink would call it, which I guess isn't all that surprising since I'm somewhat off my meds after having a (really really) bad reaction to Tegretol, the drug she was trying to wean me onto this month. Right now she has me taking both Lithium and Risperidone, but neither of which in amounts considered therapeutic according to my research so I'm left thinking "why bother?" especially since I despise the one and the other makes/made me fat. But...*sigh*...thou shalt not question the Ph.D., right?
The next course of action, I think anyway, is a drug that was only recently approved in Canada, called Ziprasidone (brand name: Zeldox), but has been available in the US for a long time under the brand name Geodon. One of its side effects is weight loss, which is pretty much the only reason it was approved for sale in Canada.
Hooray. Drugs.
Well, all of those damn racing thoughts of mine disappeared once I started typing and my Ativan kicked in, so I guess I'll put myself back to bed and leave you all with this fucking AMAZING video of Boney M. performing "Daddy Cool" that I haven't been able to stop watching since my dear friend ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) ditsybint linked it to me. Enjoy!
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[06 Jul 2008|10:49am] |
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Ho hum. Waiting, waiting.
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[05 Jul 2008|10:24am] |
Happy Birthday fishantlers!
15 years, countless ex-boyfriends, two husbands, three children, deaths, weddings, laughs, tears, you are still my best friend!
Thanks for being there for it all.
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